heartbroken-guy

2005-09-25T09:22:00.000+08:00

wah..ytd hor...wake up veri earli sia..hahas..nth to do ma..den eat my breakfast ..so sianz.. after play com until afternoon..den i change o guitar..wah;;.prophesy sia..i play de cum out fer cell group meetin anf svc sia..wow..haha
afternoon ard 2 go to church..den saw jeremy at the bus stop..wah..he goin cell group sia..hahax.. so coincidence...hahax..den i reach liao saw a person..andre!!..hahax..saw him playin guitar..den he teach jing ye de extraordinay...so nice..hahax..i oso wan learn..!!..
after tat i listen to si xuan de zen micro..hais..wanna work in the holidae..wanna hav more money..hais..i wan lot of things sia..hais..but no money..
after go svc liao..den go fellowship..den i gt bs...wow..it tok abt dicipleship sia..hahax..so gd.. hehes..love it mann...hahax..after tat hor..hais..wait fer yieping dey all..cux they gt cc briefin ma.. den cx i go hme wif audrey..den i wait oso lo..den reach hme 12 liao..hahax

den todae wake up 9..so late..hahax..but i still tired..so wanna go slp again le..cya..buauz..

2005-09-23T18:01:00.000+08:00

hais..todae gt eng paper 2 and social studies..wah!! the eng passage so chim sia..see liao will slp sia..so long n diff..diao..still sae easi..hahax..den the summary i any how rite de.. duno whether will pass or not..i tink nt even 19 marks sia..hahax..so diff..sum ppl do half way slp liao.. i do until the passage B wan to slp liao..but din slp..cux no time le..den i rush sia.. lyk mad lyk tat..hahax..den wen i tied the paper finish..ms ow sae time up le..wAh..thx God sia.. hav enuff time to do finish sehx..hehe..den my social studies neh..actuali i din study de..is las min de..den at canteen wif yuqing studyin..hais..thx God sia..hahas..the one tat i read gt cum out sia..hehe..den summore iis quite easi de..so i tink can pass..hehes..wah..oso jux enuff time fer mi sia..same tin sos..wen i tied the paper ..the cher sae time up liao..so on time wors..hahax` i oso the first time durin exam din slp worx..canot play slp liao..las yr le..dun wanna repeat again..jux wanna faster end my studies..hehe.. hais..
after the exam yong quan..jolyn..si xuan..sheng chen..ming yang..and mi go meet audrey den hav lunch together wors..hahax..first time sia..wow...mux keep it up..hahax..den oni jolyn n her eat..we all tok oni..sianz..hahax..go coffee shop do nth..lolx..
after tat take bus go hme..den at bus stop saw. ying.jie and amy..hahax..both listen to mp3 sia.. den ying jie pei amy go hme cux amy gt npcc sia..hehe..den pei audrey go hme liao den i go hme..
at hme nw..finali can relax sia..cux mon oni gt physic paper..9.25 can go off le..hahax..so shiok.. lolx..den nw doin nth sia..still tinkin whether goin to cell group meetin a nt..cux i havin break ..oso wanna watch tv sia..hais..but i wanna go lehx..sianz..haix..nebermind..lata den decide..nw nid to eat liao..so hungry..go liao buai

2005-09-21T15:14:00.000+08:00

wah..ytd ferget to blog..actuali oso nth de lar..hav my eng and poA pAper ytd..so easi..opps..canot saee soo earli..lata i fail sia..touchwood..choi..hahax..den ytd my jie call mi chat..chat so long until i fall aslp sia..hahax..den chat online and studyin until 1++2am sia.. power seh..hehe..
den todae wake up at 6.20..soo latee sia..hehe..den todae de E maths ppr 1 so easi oso..opps..again..hahax..lata i fail sia..hehe..but is reali veri easi..hahax..den after tat gt geography..so diff..hahax..finali diff ppr sia..lol..wah..the time so short..no enuff time sia.. summore nid to rite so long..hais...hahax..den nw ritin n updatin my blog sia..if nt kana scolded by ppl sia..saee i din update my blog..wahaha..
nid to go lia0..nid to study sia..2 more month can havoc lia0..hehe

2005-09-19T17:55:00.000+08:00

yo..hahax..so long den update..sori guy..din hav much time..erm let tok abt todae..
todae i gt my prelim..sci practical wor..hahax..the rain so big..lyk cats n dogs sia..luckily din late siaxue hui do the chem experiment den the solution dio gin yong den he whole shirt dirty de..hahax..den i do lyk siao lyk tt..owae do wrong..lolx
den teck ann de hydrogen gas so loud giv us ans sia..lolx..den can help mi save time sehx..
hais..but i tink can oni jux pass nia..so diff..hehe..den nw at hme..oso nth to do..
havin my o' level soon..wanna do well n jux get off it..dun wanna repeat again..wanna hav my own world..my own creation..n my freedom..

``no matter wad..jux turn ur bac to mie..n i will owae b dere fer u day n night..until the end of the world``

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2005-06-15T12:12:00.000+08:00

haix,,,sori guy..i long time din post le..cux i feel veri tired n bz the las few wk..was troubled n tireed ob mani tin..haix..so mani tin happen durin tis time.haix...i jux had EMERGE conference few dae ago..damn shiok sia..i was performin in front of over 3000++ people..and summore in the front floor sia..so scary..the people look at mi lyk duno wad sia..hahax..noe a lot of fren durin tis time..haix..but oso vei sian..tired of livin and my life le..sumtin reali feel breakdwn and unable to move..i tink the mover in my body is all those godly people bah..and oso..Jesus.. but is diff..and life still need to carry on..mani time i wen to acrade to play para..to release the damn stresses in moi..sick of it le..i dun wish to tok abt wad happen durin tis period le..it is the past le..no point tokin abt it..no one able to help mi de..i canot go bac to the past and mend it..if i can..i wun b here liao..i b total hapi and full of non-unhapiness..but as i sae..is past..ppl try callin mi askin mi am i ok?..r u kay?..gt anitin share?..i jux silently replied dem nth ..juz a nick onli..but a nick xpress a lot frm my heart..i dun wanna ppl to noe ...even they noe..how they help.. they canot help..haix..wadeva they tell mi..i wun sae..cux wad they sae canot help mi.. my heart are hard but is soft wen i saw HIM(jesus)..i jux pray and pray..seek and seek.. recently hav lot off qurallel..wif my family..wif my fren..wif my member..haix..y tats so..cux all my fault.. to mi..no one is at fault xcept mi..i dun wan to b a burden in other heart neither do i wan to b a disturb in their heart..as i typin..i was cryin..nt of the tin..but of y my life is damn miserable..dere is no wae to help..if tis is the end..let it b..i dun wan to carry on wif tis life le.. feel lyk to shut the world up..

wen ur hapiness is shared..it is doubled
wen ur sorrow is shared..it is half..

nth`

2005-05-12T23:55:00.000+08:00

sori guy..reali bz studyin fer my exam..haix..the A maths paper 1 & 2 damn difficult sia.. mrs chong wanna kill us ar..giv us so hard..i tink tis batch de o level students all die le..stopid teacher..as fer other paprer..quite easy bahx..den hor todae gt POA paper..so easy..ppl still doin i aledi slp le..hahax..all sae diff..but i tink quite easy..xcept the las qn..so blur..duno wad to do..
stopid joachim..i use singlish gt ur problem...and wadeva it is..ur comment is useful ans cux to the core..buay song cum tok to mi..dun lyk tt sae de..no gut..hum ji...kanasai..u tink ur eng tt pro..tt gd..den gt top in eng la..sae until ur eng veri gd..altho is beta den mi..doesnt mean u can show off..i tink u r the one havin attitude problem lo..act onli..
enuff of that idiot..haix..7 daes le.. so hapi..reali wish dat tis is forever..nvr leave mi worx..dun wanna get hurt again n again..reali cherish u lot..hope u wun leave mi..i dun care wad other ppl sae abt u..but i will carry on to luv and adore u..luv u lot..wanna see u b hapi owae..cux wen u sad i will sad..
tink of the past recently..the song hui dao gua qu by jay chou..a song tt giv mi lot og memorise..memorise of warmth..hurt..and all the problem i had..reali wish tt all tis problem wun appear again..haix..all the memorise is past..but the present is here..jux play tarot card recently..predict tt my past is warmth n nice..present is nt reali gd but the future is nice..reali hope tis is true..tryin to blieve it..haix..present is bad..haix..tryin toerase the tinkin ..haix

happy..

2005-05-08T11:00:00.000+08:00

hi guy..reali sori..so long haven post my blog lo..so so sori..cux exam is cumin n i'm preparin my exam n oso fer my revision..hehe..lotsa thing happen..lotsa is lotsa..mani up n down..but nvm..i conquer it...tt is wad my sch motto..Conquer Thyself..hahax..erm..let mi cut short bahx..if not i write rite until tml oso haven rite finish..hahax...las wk..quite..i mean the las wk of april..cux of wad i tell her..n oso reali veri sori fer the word tt i tell u dat time..cux i reali fel tt dere is no feelin n oso dun wanna lose ur heart,,reali sori..n oso..i dun wan bcux of a simple cropped up dat destroy our frenship..moreever..we r still fren..n oso congrate u to find a new ones..hehe..bless u..~~

erm..haven lotsa of studyin durin these few dae..almost gonna brust out..but i gt strength..haa. kana scold n punish by mr chrng er playin uno card in the np room..onli uno card ma..noy poker card..diao..den mondae still need to go c him..haix..so sianz..n sad..den last fri..which is 6/5..hav my chinese paper 1 n 2...so diff..i mean diff fer other..but fer mi..quiter okok..cux i gt study..hahax..dun wanna sae easy..if nt my gan mei will laugh at mi win i did poorly..hehe..

last but nt least..reali treaure u a lot..dun wanna leave u..n hope u oso wun..missin u everidae n nite.. reali hope fer everlastin..eternity..i will b wif u to go thru all situation..happy or sad.. u havmi owae..sharin ur burden wif mi..lift to mi n i lift to God..blieve mi..nvr ever leave u..onli u can choose to leave mi but i nvr choose dat..reali lurve u..no matter wd happen..no matter wad situatiion is ahead of us..reali hope u will nt leave..n i wun leave..happy owae..n lastly.. ~~i lurve u~~

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2005-04-25T22:29:00.000+08:00

sunday 24/4~~
todae wake up damn earli...giv karen a mornin call at 8am..tink it is the most accurate time de cux everitime call her late late de..den she will rush here n dere...aiyo..hahax..den after tt call ming yang n sin yee confirm wif them wad time..den wait 4 their call can slp sia..so long..den wen call hor..oso so long..so tired sia..hahax..den after tokin finish liao..i go slp again..so tired..saturdae slp quite late sia cux watchin tv..hehe..den meet ming yang n sin yee go svc..actuali is accompani ming yang de..but cux two person quite sianz so we two join sin yee de cell grp..den we saw simon..haix..he sae he went wif sin yee fer both svc sia..so power..haha. den the svc was so great sia..altho i watch n listen once..but i still lyk it..so meaningful..hehe.. and summore wad he sae is reali abt moi lo...so real..haix..den after the svc..i pia cab go jackson hse..cux gt chu si ma..den at his hse eat maggie mee...so tired..den we go holland drive dere chu si..we all helpin them ma..the hoon hong lion dance troupe..so mani ppl...dey do dottin sia.. 40 lion..15 dragon..5 crab..5 prawn..5 phoniex..5 fish..8 qi ling..and 2 bei si...so mani..n oso so hot sia..den at dere..we all bao ka liao...so tired...hehe..but i lyk it..den aed 12 went hme..den reach hme straight awae slp..hehe..

monday 25/4
hahax..todae din go sch...noy pon ten..oso nt play truant..cux hor..ytd slp late..den todae wake up late..hahax..den wake up at ard 11 lyk tt...den after tt i find out tt sin yee pon ten din go sch..hahax..so notti..at ard 2.30..i go 427 dere meet johnases..cux he wanna borow money frm mi ma..haix..den at dere chat chat...a while lata go hme..den wen at mu doorstep..sin yee n ming yang call mi..ask mi wanna go jp...sianz...i lyk whole dae go out..den my mum let mi go..thank god..den i meet her at bus stop den go jp lo..at dere hor..so angri sia..actuali break her recoed de..den she go play den push dwn my record..haix..nvm..at least i was once in the top 10... hehe... den ard 8 lyk tt go meet my parent eat dinner..haix..so sianz n hungry..den i eat so mani sia..scare mi..hahax..den go hme den online a while den slp liao..so sianz..

i feel lyk tellin u..but everitime i saw u..my courage n speech r all gone..u r the one tt giv mi the spirit to go on..but how i tell u..i long want to sae..but scare tt wen i sae out..the frenship and laughter we had is gone..can i tell u..haix..i duno..the past was a thin tt i wanna change but it is too late..the present is a thin tt i wanna stay abit longer..the future is a thin tt i wanna change all over again..if i had a chance..i wish i did nt noe u..cux without u..my life is mch more easy..nt sae u r bad...but nw is tryin to forget u n if i 4get u..we r still fren..i rather wish to b fren den b a stranger..haix..my burden is so heavy..n everione jux keep goin..i trust in you eveitime..sumtime u make mi blieve..sumtin nt..haix..hu can understand mi..? no one..i m reali reali veri tired le..jux wanna rest fer a while..but i can't..

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2005-04-23T22:59:00.000+08:00

~~~Thursday~~~21/4
haix...sianz..wake up at 6am..den go sch..so sianz nth to do at sch..den i slp all dae long..hahax.. our class so noisey sia..at nite canot slp..tinkin of sumtin..dere is owae sumtin botherin mi ..haix..alwae try to solve it..but seem endless..den after sch go hme study..exam cumin le ma..hahax..den at nite slp at 1am..

~~~Friday~~~22/4
todae our sch sport dae...wake up at 6am...sianz sia nth to do..den jacky dey all tio taiji..handphone lost..haix...den at there so sianz..so hot..so tired oso..still wonderin hu is xue lin...haix..but nvm..after tt i go bac hme slp..cux too tired n i hav tin lata o ma..so after i slp..i go fer POS meetin in church..haix..den so fast end..den we go jurong point meet my ceel grp..go fer a dinner..den after tt go arcade play para para..haha..so funi n so fun..hehe..play liao veri tired den go hme slp liao..

~~~saturday~~~23/4
todae gt svc sia..den in the mornin gt lion dance trainin..haix..so tired..but bo bian... den the trainin so tirin..hahax..den no time to eat my lunch..haha..actuali dun wanna go fer svc de..but canot..cux i dun wanna b lazi animore..dun wanna b the past mi..wad past is past..den after svc we go eat dinner..so sianz..so little ppl dere..den audrey de grandpa nw in hospital..haix..reali hope his grandpa will b jux fine..haix..den reach hme at ard 10pm..nth to do...den i tok to hendri a while..feel a bit fresh n hapi after tokin to him..thx a lot brother..

haix..i lift up my burden to u..for ur burden is light n ur yoke is easy..feelin beta nw..but reali hope tt all tis tin will disappear soon..haix..when is the day tt i long for?Y everitime it is me.. it seem tt i hav conquerin it..but it not..i duno y..mayb bahx..it seem endless road ahead of mystery of difficulties..seem tt i owae live in a world of fear n difficulties..owae longin fer a fresh life..help mi..everitime u see mi wif a smile on my face..ortokin as nth hav happen..but u nvr noe tt my heart is aledi broken n i tryin to mend it everi single day..ppl try to hurt more n more everiday..but i forgive dem..no point hatin them..but y cant the problem stop here.. haix.. dere is owae sumtin dere i cant sae out..y?mi myself oso duno..u all owae gib pressure dat my strength cant contain..if i hav a chance..i will choose to disappear in tis world of unhapiness.. i had enuff of it le..

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2005-04-20T20:03:00.000+08:00

haix...tml so stress....todae wake up late..wake up at 6.40..luckily nt late..den todae at sch no electricity..so humid...haix...den after gt liao le hor..we go auditorium den SUEN sae todae he nt goin to teach..den we gt free lesson..so hapi...hahax...durin tt time..i was tinkin..tinkin of mani tin..mani tin struck my head..haix..after tt..gt assembly..errghh....i 4get to brin tie..den kana standin up..but heng din do CSO..haix..sianz...den was so bz todae..runnin here n dere..den after sch gt cca..my npcc...haix..full U sia..but bo bian..mux go..cux las few parade le.. so go np..den i was the PC 2...so hapi..finali wait le so long..hahaz...den do mani tin at a same time..den i slack at the humanities rm..den was tinkin n tinkin...haix..den tis yr de npcc oversea trip go to Perth sia..but i canot go..gt o level exam..chinese ppr..den after tt go hme..den eat my dinner..so hungry..cux din eat lunch ma..bz until 4get..hahax..so stress..
u r nt dere wen i need u...y?all the stress had increase..frm teacher..parent..frens..haix..y?all along..i jux wish dat u r dere..but u r nt..everitime i need help..ppl owae disappear..y?in my head..dere r so mani Y's ..but i canot solve..haix..without u in my life..it is meaningless..tryin to acceptin the fact..but it is too hard..my heart is veri soft n small le..i dun wanna lose it..i reali scare tt wen i leave u..u will b so sad...duno the choice is correct a nt..dere r owae problems in my heart tt i canot sae..jux duno y..time is wad i need...pls let mi hav sum..thx..i reali hope u can understand wad i feelin nw..if u dun undersrand..it ok..haix..jux wanna see sumtin..hope u can express urself nt thru sms..cux i dun wan the tokin to b silence..thx..

haix..tin solve but nt all...

2005-04-19T20:24:00.000+08:00

yoyo..sori guyz..ytd no mood blog...cux reali too mani tin happen le..frm mornin till nite..ytd hor..haix..so mani hw..the teacher gib lyk siao lyk tt...expect us to do so mani n hand in todae.. actuali todae dun wanna go sch de..but canot ..gt A maths common test..if Wed take is 80%.. so bo bian..den oso saw one of my lost contact ytd...so hapi..cux can get her num..haha..den ytd slp veri late cux tokin on da fone..den summore tinkin of sumtin...todae damn tired sia..wake up onli at 6am..whole body restless sia...but still nid to go..gt test...ergh...4get to brin hp sia..den todae she oso pon ten...sms mi at 12pm askin mi gt go live recordin a nt..haix..tot i tell u liao...den hor..todae so angry sia..tt stoopid ming guang..beta watch out sia..tolerate so long le..if u all dun stop..sumtin bad will happen to u all..i mean it!!..tt stoopid person..stoopid class...stoopid school...but oso wanna thx the sch..if nt fer it..i wouldn't noe all my mei..frens..n oso God...hehex..den todae de test so easy..tot was a difficult one..scare mi onli..hahax..den todae slp at 3 to 5..cux veri tired..oso slp in class sia..hahax..den todae so stress sia..wen goin hme..takin bus together wif edward..tricia..n rong yuan..den saw lesile..jia wei..n violet on da bus...long time din saw violet le..grow pretti le worx..hahax..but too bad..ppl catch liao worx..hehe...anw..saw them go basa malan together..hahax...hahax..sianz..tml np full U sia..bo bian..full U nice ma..den jux nw polish my boot n makin my uniform..still feelin tired nw sia..haix..oso went to nit bazar jux nw..nothin to see de..i onli buy a shirt onli..haix..so fan...
quarellin wif my father..everitime nag nag nag...naggin the same old tin...listenin until sianz..but canot blame..i was oso a bit notti..onli a bit onli..hahax..
tis few dae my mood nt so gd..feelin veri low..sumtin wanna sae but cant sae out..lackin of courage or dun wanna sae??i duno..tinkin to n fro..still findin the ans...wen it went off..u canot catch it bac..dere is nothin u can do..y ppl can do it but i canot..y other family can b so peaceful n harmony..but nt mine..wonderin day n nite..no one giv mi an ans..problem giv us cofidence.. success n power..but it seem tt no matter how mani problem i had face n solve..i gain nothin.. y is it tt everitin is my fault..? y is it everitime i m the one facin problems..? no one can ans mi.. sumtime i feel lyk shuttin up..but can't..to other,some of the thin seem easy fer them..but nt mi.. i feel lyk a burden in tis world...a world full of darkness..n a valley of light tt i m walkin to..but the road seem endless..but no matter wad..i will keep walkin..wif Him..all thin r possible.. i hope so..but i m trustin it..until it lose it power...stadin up on my feet..cux i dun wanna to b in tis world..but a world full of hapiness instead of sadness..light instead of dark..n fren instead of loneliness..

yy??how??

2005-04-18T22:15:00.000+08:00

toda wake up at 5.45am...cux gt sch ma...haix...den todae gt PE.....so stress....haix...hav my classes...nth much to sae..after sch...i call sin yee...den meet her at her hse dwnstair...chit-chat.. haha..den after ming yangg n simon join us...tokin until qurallelin...haix....den in the nite...her fren tell mi she dun wait le...den tok to her fren 4 a while...reali duno ma..so confused..how to ans u?....if is u..i tink u oso duno how to tell mi..but since she choose the way...i oso hav no sayin..haix..confused......how???m i in the wrong?wad shld i do?reali duno..haix..izzit acceptin the right way....can anyone tell mi the ans...
dun feel lyk bloggin todae..

FooTprinT

2005-04-17T17:10:00.000+08:00

One night a man had a dream.

He dreamed he was walkiing along the beach with the Lord.

Across the sky flashed scenes from his life.

For each scene, he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand:

one belonging to him, and the other to the Lord.

When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand.

He noticed that many times along the path of his life there was only one set of footprints.

He also noticed that it happened at the lowest and saddest times in his life.

This really bothered him and he questioned the Lord about it.

"Lord, You said that once I decided to follow You, You'd walk with me all the way. But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life, there is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why when I needed You most You would leave me."

The Lord replied,
"My son, My precious child, I love you and would never leave you. During your times of suffering, when you see only set of footprints, it was then that I carried you."

tired...haix...

2005-04-17T16:46:00.000+08:00

yoyo...sori ytd 4get to post ytd tingy....
saturday:...
ytd wake up at 6pm...cux gt NAFA 2.4km run....irritatin sia..run on sat...i wan to slp de...but bo bian..haix...den after tt went to JJC dere de coffee shop drink iced milo...de hor..we went straight to JJC fer our NAFA test...haix...den i go run..den hor...run n run..i feel lyk walkin sia..but canot..last yr liao..mux keep runin..so i continue run lo...den after tt run finish liao.. guess wad is my timin..?hehe..dun tell u all..slowly guess lo...after runnin finish..i straight awae run to the toilet cux i wanna vommit..i regret sia..cux jux nw b4 thr run i drink milo den nw vommit sia...haix..nxt time dun drink le..after tt..i take cab go hme wif yuqing n ze xing dey all cux dey all wanna watch cartoon...still small sia..hahax...no offence..hehe..den after i go hme rest le...den i go bath n slp fer 2 hrs cux tired ma..n oso a bit sick...after restin jing ye call mi..ask mi wad time go church den he wanna meet mi..so a while lata after takin my lunch..i go meet him lo...to moi surprise..i saw han sheng n oh soon cumin bac fer service..so hapi..cux they r backslidders...den i oso heard tt bobin is cumin too..although i dun reali lyk him..but as long as he dun make mi can le..oso quite hapi fer him..as he still hav the heart to cum bac..after all tis tin...i went fer my service..n had my lunch after tt...n went hme after tt...hehec..i was damn tired tt dae..

sundae:...
todae wake up at 7.40 sia..actuali was givin karen mornin call at 8 de..but i overslept so call her at 8.15..hahax..sori worx..but aniwae...i need to go serangoon ma..gt lion competition dere..go help out oso go see their performance..hehe..saw my frens dere...so mani of them..n i oso saw slyvester..hahax...but he nt my idol...hahax...took sum photos of him...sianz...watch until 1.30..den reach hme at 3.40 lyk tt...so tired...den lata still gt a bit of hw to do..tink i stop here le..continue tml...

Finalli fer evEritin...haha

2005-04-16T12:36:00.000+08:00

yoyo....sori guy...last few months i actualli veri buzy n mani r goin on...durin tis few months..it teaches lota lota tins...but first i wanna wis all my frens..gan mei's...bro n sis in christ hapi bdae.. sori fer the belated bdae present..hope u all wun mind...thru tis months..i hav strengthen myself a lot...and i wanna thx to the ppl...without u guy dere encouragin mi wen i was havin ups' n dwowns'...i tink i wun b here so hapi or rather feelin so gd..tis yr..our sch is usin the home room system...which mean..the room is fer teacher..while we pupils the poor guy..were run fer our lessons n places r varies...so sad...n wen u late..u r out...n tis system is use by the JCs and university...den i oso hav lion dance trainin..guitar trainin..my cca...remedials..so tirein...everi week oso gt..still gt competitons..hahax..tin on my shlder r more n more heavy...but i wun fall dwn cux of all tis tin..but i will conquer it..everi little tin..nothing is impossile...and also my shedule was veri packed veri day every week...so tiring...problem r olwae cumin n i am olwae conqerin..so sad n tired..
my strength is limited...it is reali tired..but no one understand...tryin to put up a smile on my face to brin joy on other....but as fer myself..i can brin joy to mi alone..i'm a guy tt no one lyk n no one wanna noe..a guy tt dun share his sorrow but joy..a guy tt wanna noe u but afraid the consequences..hope tt *sumone* out dere is dere wan i turn to..without u dere..i tink i will long ago disappear..but until i noe u..my life is nvr the same..believin in u giv moi strength tt i nvr had b4..u r the one tt giv mi advices..i will nvr leave u lyk other but stay closer to u..and u can hav my word..
lastly...i wanna sae is...frens...i will olwae b wif u all..until the light n darkness of th world..nvr leave u all...cux u all giv mi my experiences n also my life..without u guy..i tink my ups' n downs' r still dere..thx yew u guy so much...n oso..o level is cumin..hope u guy can do well n pass wif flyin colour..cya

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2004-12-10T23:15:00.000+08:00

yoyo..everydae go lion dance den go until 11.50pm..in between i go eat my dinner..so hungry sia.. den hoRx..jackson ask mi go take the lion head..make moi hand so pain..haix..den tis mornin wake up at 8.50am..den i go watch The Incrediblie..so funni sia..hahax..jack jack so cute..hahax..kekex..den hoRx..after go eat lunch den go Audrey hse for cell grp meetin le..reach dere ard 1.30pm..first time so early reach her hse sia..hahax..den after tt finish cell grp le..we go eat dinner den i go taekwondo le..todae do kickin sia..jumpin side kick sia..so pain..hahax.. but i lyk it..kekeX..den nth liao bahx..i tink so..so nw go do moi tin le..cya guyZ..

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2004-12-09T19:28:00.000+08:00

yoyo..hi everione..haix..ytd hoRx..wen i play finish bball..den i go yuhua CC..go dere c gt ani one i noe a nt..haix..den ard 6pm go hm den 6.10pm reach home..haix..after tt go watch teebee n eat my dinner..after tt sheng chen call mi chat..sae he sianz..ma cham everytime sianz de lehx.. everytime call mi sae he nth to do..den he suddenly go watch teebee or listenin to his favourite DJ..ling zhi..haix..lyk tt nt sianz le loRx.. aiYo..so after tt ard 10pm..he call again n den we all conference wif sumone..den the nxt dae they go window shoppinZ..at first onli gt me..sheng chen n her onli..after yong quan n si xuan oso gt call her den we all conference together lo..haix..so funni sia..we tok cock all de way sia..hahax.. haix.. den gt mani jokes sia..laugh until stomach pain sia..haix..i miss mani part sia..cux my parent lo..dun let mi use fone den i need to use the fone secretly..so troublesome..ArRghH..but oso nvm de..use to it le..kekeX..so we tok all the way until 3am lyk tt..haix..still nt tired sia..duno y..mayb laugh until nt tired le..hehex...haix..den tis mornin wake up at 8am..den hoRx..jackson call mi tell mi tt lata 8pm gt lion dance..haix..tis wk duno y gt so mani lion dance sia..izzit tis wk lion dance big dae ar..ArRghh..so troublesome de..haix..so after tt didnt go window shoppinZ wif sumone oso duno y..den instead we go si xuan hse..hahax..so fun sia..play his drum set..todae learn how to play drum sia..so hapi..kekeX..den play until 4.35pm we go meet jing ye at chinatown go eat dinner..cux jing ye n si xuan stay over nite at yong quan hse but i didnt cux gt sumtin on...so after tt we go visit yong quan ministry de elders'..dey all veri frenly de.. so nice to chat wif ..den after ard 6.18pm go home loRx..haix..den ard 7pm lyk tt den jux reach home..haix..so hapi..sad..n confused..todae, she cum bac le..wanted to tell her but tink she still angry..wanted to sms her but tink she wun bother to see..wanted to call her but tink she wun listen..hope tt she 4giv mi..reali hope tt to happen..i dun wan to lose tis frenship jux lyk tt..i cherish it a lot..hope u noe wad i mean..haix..ai yi ge ren hen tong ku de..wang ji yi ge ren gen tong ku..but..haix..hope i can cope wif mi..hope so bahx..haix..jux wanna sae..wo shi bu hui qin yi fang qi de..

sianz

2004-12-08T14:49:00.000+08:00

yoyo..din update ytd cux i reali veri tired..erm..ytd ar..wake up at 7am..den eat my breadfast.. den after tt hoRx..go 4 my lion dance at 11am lo..haix.. the place to lion danced hor is my hse dere de coffee shop..den gt dey invite us n 5 tou shi..so hot sia.. but we gt mani free drink n oso buffet to eat n drink..kekex..den i saw weiyu at the coffee shop..he work dere 4 his fren 1 day onli sia..haix..den after my lion dance senior call mi to take the lion head sia..den i tink..jux learn onli scare lata do wrongly..but in the end...still okie..nth goes wrong..kekeX..den after tt at ard 3pm go home..den i slp until 6.30pm sia..hehe..tired ma..nt pig hoRx..hehe..den after tt online den oso go down stair dere see sumtin loRx..haix..the floor so muddy sia..Eee..but no choice need 2 walk..hahax..den after at nite horX..conference wif jing ye..yong quan..sheng chen..n xi suan..den si xuan tell us abt the great tribulation..Ooo..suddenly we will all so quiet.. n we read the book of revalation..n i pray until 4.30am den slp sia..den todae hoRx..wake up at 8am..duno y canot slp sia..den after eat my lunch lo..n nw mayb wan 2 go play bball l.e..so cya guy..tgc..~

~haix~

2004-12-06T12:57:00.003+08:00

yo everone..sori woRx..din update for a few day..erm..on dec 3..which is fri..nohin much to sae lo..my fren sheng chen jux cum bac frm hong kong..so sad..din buy present n tibits for us 2 eat sia..sob sob~~den he sae hoRx the plane lyk wan to crash lyk tt..cux the fuel leakin ma..scare mi sia..but duno whether is true a nt..keke..tin is true baHx..haix..den after tt..at nite i veri bz..can sae i whole dae bz..callin mani ppl lo..invitin them to church..den in the end invite le 5 ppl..den at ard 6pm take a nap until 7pm..den after tt at 8pm go for my taekwondo class..the sir sae i pass my gradin..so hapi..den i spar wif my fren until my hand pain..den at nite conference wif my fren until so late until at ard 3am...oso..sis iris go Genting le..cum bac onli at sundae.. erM...nw tok abt Dec 4..saturdae..slp until 11am..den sheng chen call mi sae he cum my hse so i wait 4 him lo..den wen he cum hoRx..we go meet my fren at jp bus interchange to brin them to church..so at ard 4pm reach church..tell jing ye to buy bread for mi cux i didnt eat my lunch but he forget ..in the end he still gt buy sia..hahaX..den after tt wen doen to B4 for the svc..saw debbie cumin out but didnt call her..hahax..den after tt hansheng oso brin his fren to svc sia.. YeaH!!den tt svc so great sia..gt the duno wad certificate de..den audrey..jerry n hendri was awarded but hendri nt in singapore sia..haiz~~ but durin the svc hoRx..gt sum tin happen lo.. cux hoRx..at tt time i duno why feel so different lo..lyk veri sad n nt hapi lyk tt..den sheng chen ask mi i sae nth lo..haiz~ duno how to xplain sia..den after the svc we go coffee shop eat n wow..sheng chen stay until 8pm sia..break record..^.^'' den wen we reach hm i saw the teebee programme quite nice den ask rong yuan to accompani mi watch until 3.10am..but she slp at 2.50am..haiz..owae lyk to slp de..hahax...jk onli..den ytd..Dec 5..sundae..Iris cum bac frm Genteng..den she sae she sick..haix..mux take care of ur bodi woRx..den we todae gt cg outin to bugis sia..den the newcomer..may may n weili oso gt go sia..haix..but tink they r bored too..cux they dun tok much...hahax..n oso we take a neoprint sia..so nice n funny..lyk it so much..den after tt reach hm at 6.30pm den slp until 7.35pm lo..den watch the chn 8 show..so funni sia..hahaX~~den after tt jing ye we all to conference..gt jolyn..yong quan n mi..n oso jing ye..den he need 2 slp so we conference on jolyn de hp..den tok until 3.18am..yong quan need 2 slp le..left mi n jolyn n we tok until 3.43am sia..still nt tired sia..duno y..haix..but still need 2 slp sia..den slp until todae 8.40am wake up giv yong quan morin call..the wake up onli at the 15th call tt i called..haix..slp lyk a pig sia..jk jk onli..haix..nw online do nth sia..wanna tell tt person..i reali din sae it de..hope u 4giv mi..i dun wish to ask so much frm u..hope u will to tok to mi or sms mi..jux wish tt it was lyk in the past..if we r nt fate to b together..i admmit it le.. hope tt u will 4giv mi n lyk in the past..hope n wish u noe hu i tokin to..haiX~~gtg liao le.. cya u guyz ltr..buaiz..~

~haix~

2004-12-06T12:57:00.002+08:00

~haix~

2004-12-06T12:57:00.001+08:00

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2004-12-02T11:33:00.000+08:00

sori.. tis few dae din update my bog... so soRi..haix..shld start frm where lehx..?wad piang..so mani lion dance trip sia...until my hand de wrist pain sia..haix..*she* fly to JaPan le..hope she cum bac faster..sob sob..ai Qing sHi toNg Ku de..cumin onli on 9 Dec..finalli tis sat can go church le!!las wk week owae go sundae de svc..hAix..wanna tell u tt i will wait 4 u forevA.. no mtter waD..even until u old..i will cum wen u call..help if u need..wanna tell u tt i still lubb u.. hope u r nt angri ani more..i was reali sori..hope u 4giv mi..tis few dae so bz n my shedule is pack sia..haix..den lion dance 4 the whole wk..OMG!!..sianz..watchin the bible seminar on tues n wed..osos duno y i watch 2 dae..YeA..taufik win le..but to mi..i tink all r winner..n oso.. sly r nt bad too..hahX..hmMm..duno wad to rite le..i tink end here first le..ltr wen gt ling gan den rite agin..

s0 siAnZ..

2004-11-23T10:07:00.000+08:00

haix..ytd midnite didnt slp...conference until 5.20am den slp..sumone i todae 7am nid 2 wake up..but i 8.10 den wake up..after went to sch..cux nida do the CIP thingy..packin n wrap a bear lidat loRx..so tired sia,,9.45am do until 3.45 sia..moi muscle all pain liao le~~nid 2 untie the ribbon n th tag..after nid 2 tie another type of ribbon and a small card into a small bag or box den consider finish...altogether we all 29 ppl but sum went home earlier..we do 1003 bearS!! so mani..canot imagine we all do so mani..haha...haix..den todae saw tt person..actualli is tryin veri hard 2 4get tt person but todae saw *** le..wan 2 ask *** but dun dare..alwaes wanna tell her but dun hav the courage..oso duno y..feel so wordless in front of her..sumtim wanna ask her sumtin oso dun dare n summore we hav recently qurrallel..if can..i would sae..but i tink it is fate bahx..we r not destiny to b together..but hope tt we can..mayb to u..i m jux ur fren..but wanna tell u tt..to mi..u r a gal hu r inside of my heart tt r unable 2 remove..jux hope tt u noe wad i tryin to sae..i accept the fate n ur decision..n oso..i will owaes b dere 4 u wenever u nid a person 2 lend u a shoulder/hand..sob' sob'~erm..den hoRx.. todae my teachers cook lunch 4 us lehx..gt cambell soup..maggie mee..sausage..n treat us coca cola n root beer..hahx...so gd..first time sia...hehex..quite nice..hahx..after tt continue my work until 3.45pm..den stay in np room a while loRx..den take bus go home liao..tis wk so buzy sia..mani tin 2 do sia..Arrghh...giv mi a brEak..! haix..haven started moi hols hw sia..still gt tt stoopid enGlish hw..and hoRx..i haven recover yet sia..still beri beri sicK..haix..nw online oso no ppl..kana scolded my officer sia..saein we bypassin her..sob' sob'..hope tt all tis tin will b disappear...nw go rest le..rite again tml.. buaiZ..~~ siaNzaTion~

i'm sick..

2004-11-21T16:00:00.000+08:00

hello everione...long time didnt update moi blog le..sori woRx..ytd jux cum back frm the mount ophir trip..w0oo..it is damn fun manX..n oso veri tired.. i went at 18 Nov..den wen reachin dere horX..all of us veri hapi n excited..den wen we saw the map of the mountain..it is daMn shock...532 stepS!! plus 8 checkpoint to the summit..OMG..i was tinkin whether i can survive the climbin sia..but den..after we start our journey..den i found out tt it was much more easy than i'm tinkin.. den all of our bags is avy..all r at least 13 kg except the two twin sister.. joinin wif us r the two instructor frm the innotrek compani..they two power sia..carry a bag over 32kg still sae not heavy sia.. den wen we reach the base camp is aledi 3.50pm le..n is the faster team tt the two instructor had brought up tis mount ophir..it was so cold sia..but i didnt bring my jacket..haix..den along the way gt mani incident..i had muscle cramp all the way sia.. so suay...haix.. den at 6pm the sky r aledi dark liao..den canot the way mux use torchlight sia.. so we continue on 19 Nov..so difficult but we still conquer it..den from the foot of mount ophir to the summit is 4187 fts..so high sia..den at the summit can feel the wind so cold n see all the cloud..the view was so nice sia..is lyk u standin on the cloud sia..n den we had our lunch at the summit loRx..the last dae hoRx..we walk veri fast cux wan 2 go home ma..and den i reach home at 9pm..and hoRx..i todae sick liao..sore throat..cough..flu..and oso whole bodi hot hot de..haix..i tml den continue le..nw wan 2 eat le..so hungry..

a ~busy~ dae

2004-11-17T07:22:00.000+08:00

yoyo..finally gt a blog le..so hapi..haix..but veri long didnt edit le...hahax..sori woRx..
last sat de svc so shoik man..it rox...so fun..haix..but i reach at 12.20am..so tired..den ytd go play bball until 7pm sia..den alot of my fren cumin but they sit dere zhuo bo..haix..so sianz..den todae my fren cum my hse wake mi up..idiotic guy sia..but i carry on slp until 12.30 den wake up..after go eat lunch at the hawker center at my hse here..the uncle eri wad sia..tell him put lota chilli but gib mi abit onli..ArgHhhh..den after go cut hair//look more handsome le..hahax..jokin onli..(..a bit bHb..)..kekex..den go online loRx..finally can online le..cux moi computer siao siao de..haix..den nw tokin on the fone wif moi frens..goin to pack my bag 4 the mount Ophir camp le..update ltr..buaiz..~

HACKED!!!

2004-11-08T13:22:00.000+08:00

senghow!!!

*winkz*

wo hen hao leh..help u do blog..

u still own me fries leh..i nvr ferget wor..

hehee..

muz thnx mi lottas sia..

bleahhx..

buaiz~